A : can't you see it? the right one got a better brain

B : yeah, and better look

C : But the other one got its own beautiful color

B : i am not seeing any, it has no more color on it anyway

well, i am seeing some

i am blind for eyes but i am not as blind as you are

corpsman ; Wednesday, February 27, 2008

so let the love tear us apart
i've found the cure for broken heart

mereka harus tau rasanya tertawa

mereka harus tau rasanya bahagia

bukan hanya itu, ku banyak mau

ku ingin mereka mengerti

irama dunia berputar di atas kaki

biarkan mereka berlari atas diri mereka sendiri

biarkan mereka mulai meniti

sebuah hidup yang lebih hakiki

ku ingin mereka mengerti

caranya melompati bukit duri

biarkan mereka mengintip meski hanya setipis pipi

sebuah harapan dibalik terali

hindari panasnya api

takkan biarkan mereka bersedih

ku mau mereka tak berperih

ayo adik senyum sedikit lagi!

corpsman ; Sunday, February 24, 2008

corpsman ; Monday, February 18, 2008

i was looking for something perfect and not risky

something that might be called for sure and ever lasting

then he told me not to look for it or instead i'll get lost.
well i am done with this, i am lost

perfect doesn't make sense sometimes

this picture isn't perfect, but i love the way it goes wrong

corpsman ; Monday, February 18, 2008

don't be stupid, boy

you're growing up

don't forget what you are already know

best friends you got here, are still the best of you

i ain't coming home, i don't need that attention

but you do

go do some good choices of life

go make a time, make a life full of smiles

make it better when i am here

make it much better when she's there

you like her i know

get her and be real sometimes

grow up some muscles, make it a better way to smile

forget these problems, don't be bother to ask

ask us some questions, you might always wanted to know

hey boy. don't be stupid

think happy thoughts, though we're separated,

you got me here and you got us

please welcome the new piece of mind

ayo bestfriend, kita bisa :D

corpsman ; Saturday, February 16, 2008

so many things are left unsaid

but you know i got it all set

for something that might not be reset

i know i have done something bad

these dreams i had

leave me behind with something i don't respect

it interrupts me everytime i slept

and kick me out of the dreams i've read

i see hopes flew something like red

then comes the time i just can't stop my step

just to see how people are going upset

i do ups and downs, we don't give a shed

banyak yang saya harapkan dari setiap senja yang datang

tak satupun bawakan harum seperti bintang

banyak kata yang terbuang

biarkan saja sang gajah membeli uang

bukan mau saya punya mimpi banyak sekali

saya cuma mau jalani hidup tanpa sesali

kadang kaki ini hendak berlari

tapi apa saya perbuat otot tak menyanggupi

maaf kalau saya jadi begini

harapan saya toh banyak di interupsi

corpsman ; Saturday, February 09, 2008

dia lempar aku tinggi di atasnya

buat aku lebih berjasa, lebih berguna

biarkan saja kaki ku ada di mukanya

asalkan aku bersedia tertawa, katanya

dia bilang padaku, itu ada tandanya

ku tanya, apa boleh kita lewat sana?

dia bilang boleh saja,

ayah dan anak berjalan bersama,

hanya itu tujuannya

corpsman ; Thursday, February 07, 2008

i don't know if it's just me or so does everyone else here

but i think i have my other self here in my head

i don't know if i can still call it my other self, it's me anyway

banyak yang bilang gue itu ceria dan terlalu terbuka. wah mereka gak tau aja. i can be so dark inside and they don't know me yet. di rumah, bokap gue selalu menilai gue sebagai seorang sosok yang sangat merefleksikan dirinya sendiri, with somethings uncommon, thanks god. misalnya sifat gue yang sangat keras kepala dan ga pernah mau dengerin omongan orang. juga sifat arogan gue yang ga perduli sama orang lain, but my self. semua pusat pikiran dan hidup gue tuh ada di diri gue sendiri. dan mereka (keluarga gue) ga ada yang berani mengganggu semua itu. they just see me as the way i saw my self, and they (sometimes) treat me the way i want to. but sometimes, they just don't get what i wanted. dan dengan tololnya gue cuma bisa marah2 dan protes kenapa gak ada orang yang tau mau gue. padahal, dengan semua sifat gue yang sangat menarik diri dari keluarga, kalo bukan karna bokap gue yang sifatnya sama kayak gue, mungkin sekarang gue udah mati bunuh diri.

terus, gue sendiri ga ngerti kenapa gue bisa punya dua sisi yang amat berbeda kayak gini. di satu sisi, gue lebih suka sendirian dan berkutat dengan kehidupan gue yang sudah cukup mengasyikan buat gue. tapi di sisi lain, gue gak suka sendirian, gue suka ada di sekeliling orang2. well, just to have some jokes to laugh at, honestly. tapi gue sadar gue butuh surroundings.

mungkin itulah alesan2 kenapa selama ini orang ga ada yang bisa tau gue kenapa, malah gue sendiri aja bingung and dying to know. sering banget gue ngerasa dunia gue hancur, as ruined as it could be, tapi lima menit kemudian begitu nyampe sekolah gue udah ketawa2 sama temen sebangku gue ngetawain gue yang tadi pagi mandi sambil nangis. sama halnya kayak gue ngomongin seberapa kecewanya gue sama sahabat2 gue ke temen gue yang lain sambil ngelemparin jokes2 tentang mereka, yg akhirnya gue sambut dengan tawa.

ga ada emosi gue yang bisa gue tunjukkin dengan tepat. di saat gue seneng, gue malah nangis. di saat gue sedih, gue juga biasanya nangis. tapi di saat gue kecewa nampol-nampolan, biasanya gue lebih memilih untuk ketawa ngakak sampe mati instead of thinking more about it and cry.

gue emang cengeng, gue gak pungkirin itu. karna gue emang gak punya seorang pun yang bisa bikin gue ngomong semuanya ke dia tanpa dia anggep gue aneh, karna gue emang aneh banget, jalan pikiran gue aneh dan gue tau gue gak se-lovable itu makanya gue selalu menipu diri gue sendiri dengan selalu ceria di depan semua orang, padahal di setiap saat itu, mungkin aja gue abis nangis. gue nangis cuma sebagai pengganti cerita ke orang, berharap abis nangis gue puas.

satu-satunya orang yang ngerti gue ya cuma bokap gue. tapi gue tetep aja harus nemuin mood yang bener2 pas buat nyeritain semua yang gue rasain ke bokap. tapi biasanya, setiap gue udah dapet mood itu, gue lebih sering memutuskan pembicaraan sakral itu seketika cuma karna tiba2 gue ngerasa jijik sama diri gue sendiri, dan gue gak ngerti rasa itu dateng dari mana. akhirnya bokap gue cuma ngedapetin sepotong diri gue, sedangkan potongan2 lain gue biarin bokap gue nebak2 sendiri, dan hebatnya, bokap gue biasanya menemukan potongan2 lain dari diri gue yang belom gue temuin sebelumnya. itulah kenapa gue bisa nyebut bokap gue itu superhero buat hidup gue.

dia udah bikin gue, dia nge gedein gue, dia jagain gue, dia beliin gue semua yang gue mau, dia ngerti gue, dia nyekolahin gue di sekolahnya sendiri, dia ngajarin gue tentang diri gue sendiri, dan dia udah berkali2 menyelamatkan gue dari bunuh diri.

bokap gue itu bisa dibilang idup gue kali ya?

corpsman ; Thursday, February 07, 2008

4. All we need is love, really. SEHARUSNYA, kita itu lebih banyak mencintai, bukannya berharap dicintai. harusnya kita bisa ngeliat dunia ini sebagai sebuah dunia yang indah banget, yang semua orangnya selalu baik. yang meskipun lo di jutekin, lo masih bisa sayang sama tuh orang, dengan mncoba berpikir kalo tuh orang cuma lagi pegel nahan boker. Tapi sayangnya oh sayangnya, susah betul tampaknya.

corpsman ; Wednesday, February 06, 2008

halo, teman. lama tidak berjumpa.

kemarin bilang padaku katamu ingin mati saja?

kukira sekarang kau sudah tiada

ternyata kita masih bisa bertemu muka

sudah jam 9, mataku tak kunjung lelah

mungkin rinduku padamu yang tak mau berpisah

aku pun berjanji tak akan kalah

terima kasih sudah kembali

bawakan aku asumsi vitamin seperti tadi

perutku bilang kau baik sekali

hari ini aku tau kan tak akan pergi lagi

selama aku tau kapan harus memberi

dari saat aku lahir , kau temani ibuku

di saat aku tumbuh, kau selalu bersamaku

biarkan aku selalu bersamamu

tak mau ku dipisah waktu

tolong sampaikan pesanku pada Tuhan di langit sana
aku mau Ia selalu berada bersama kita
di sini mengarungi hidupku dengan semua tikungannya
aku mau kita selalu bersama

it's you, happiness. it's you

corpsman ; Tuesday, February 05, 2008

so, it's allright. if you change your way of thinking

we can't reclaim those shots we punch away last year

days, i spent wanting some of Kurt's art soul

i spoke with words that rhime, and hope it's speaking my mind

and probably life is great, but never real

too little space for holding on those souldiers

if it's because of me, i may well have to kill and choose the mood

is it more is it less? can't dany it's feeling

friend, we've been thinking of the shits since i am throwing melody

this is it serious, as simple as these lifes

when you punch me on the head, it's okay for me to still flow some smiles up

it's not forgotten, bitch

kick my ass if it's not a crime,

for a best friend not to say hello when they pass each other

i get sick of these language

since i am not in to any course in the fvcking surface of this moving earth

when will you go?

i've spent quite almost a month

my mouth is filled with blood from trying not to speak

please understand, this isn't just goodbye

this is i can't stand you

days that are over

we're not continue to last

this isn't working out for you or me

i live the heat for our ship that sinking down

all the friends we ever know, and all the words i know

and now they all come out too late for you to realize,

i hope you do realize someday

cause i have never seen this place.

corpsman ; Sunday, February 03, 2008

she's using her right brain, and she cum so fast

she made it to three, but she'll be dead by threes

she's feeling alone in everysingle second of this moving earth

she got bunch of friends to find something new to laugh at

but got no friends to understand any tears of her smile

think happy thoughts, girl

and don't get stupid

with love, loser

corpsman ; Friday, February 01, 2008